…We were the only black family on the
block in a predominantly white neighborhood. Other than us being colored and
the others being white, for most of my early years I didn’t perceive any
difference between my family and the rest. Even in a Southern town like Savannah, I didn’t understand what or who Jim
Crow was other than it was something really bad. Adults talked about it in
hushed tones which only made me perk up my ears more. But the pained looks on
their faces while they swept their heads from side to side made me uneasy. What
I did understand was that that Jim Crow was not to be fooled with. Like many
children, I was fortunate to be sheltered from the harshest realities of
racism.
Race relations in the South were the least of our worries with Little Momma so
sick most of the time. When she didn’t have the energy to do basic chores
around the house, to fix us something to eat, or read us a story, Grandma Sara
would fill in. Daddy Pops would always help out when he got home from
work. We tried to help as much as we could without getting in the way,
but a lot of times we made even more of a mess.
From time to time we would give Grandma Sara a break and go next door to the
Fire Chief’s house. He had kids about our age. I played fashion
consultant as my imagination coordinated outfits for my short thin paper
models. My playmate’s white long-haired dolls really captured my
attention. They were so very pretty. And I had such fun dressing
them up and combing their hair. Not once did it occur to me that I could
not grow up to be one of them, beautiful, a permanent smile on my face, and
everything right with the world. I claimed them as my own, shaking my
head as her mother took them from my hands when it was time to go
home.
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